I thought it would pass, by the end of the summer… You know that feeling of overwhelm, exhaustion, general fogginess and loss of centre….
Yes, that feeling!
On reflection, I have been on a fast train to my destination ‘new career,’ since I left physiotherapy in 2011/2012. Psychologically, I have not given myself a break to grieve and re-centre myself. For the last 2 years, I have continuously up-skilled and familiarised myself with social media and business, despite uncomfortable comfort zone stretch ickiness….
I have pushed, pushed, and pushed again through it…
Since September 2013, I thought I had finally reached ‘Destination know what I am doing and why!’.
No, actually, I do know what I am doing and why, as I have found an area of work where the alchemy of client meets artist is extremely rewarding.
But, I forgot myself in all this. I lost touch with myself. Or perhaps I just needed time to drop the old identities and re-create new ones; ones that could evolve in an unattached, connection with self kinda way!
But no, I had to keep pushing and pushing and now I am struggling to show up, as I am yet to find my authentic voice. You know the one…where you can connect with me and get exactly what I do and why I do it. The bit that helps to nourish me in my business. Sound familiar?
You see, I am not comfortable with the ‘Cookie Cutter’ business advice that is out there. It just does not suit me at all. And, boy, have I tried to take it on board.
So, I am still here running my business and services. Nothing has changed there. I am just not showing up much in the online and face-to-face world, whilst I get in touch with who I am and how I want to feel and be in my business. You get that, right?
I am exploring other ways to do business which I hope to share with you soon.
This is a temporary dropping of my anchor (thank you, Joey Clifton, for this beautiful gift in the post today), to find my authentic business voice and I will come back and hopefully light you up 😉
Thank you for reading my blog today and I look forward to connecting with you soon.